for some reason, i somehow became "famous" on the internet over the past years. why? i have no idea. i don't hate it, but i can't say i like it. sometimes it gets scary. there is absolutely nothing i can do without being judged. it's as if everybody has high expectations of me, and it kills me. i'm really not the one who wants to please everybody and change the person i am for them, i treasure being who i really am. i don't want to be just another famous face. i didn't grow up wishing i'd become a celebrity, but rather wished i'd be recognized for what i do. i like to express myself through words, photograhy and music. i say what i think, write what i feel and photograph things that reflect my perception of the world. not so long ago i uploaded a video on youtube of a friend and i at six flags. it was just a random video, i never thought i'd ever put it up anywhere, but i decided to do it anyway because many of you have asked me before to upload a video. it got in the most viewed videos list, and now has over a hundred thousand plays. i was getting comments from some old random people, and they were being so mean, perhaps jealous. that is the scary part of the whole thing. if mister nobody would upload a video on youtube, they would not be judged for how random the video can be and for what they look like. i don't understand how people can be so judgemental. insecurity? possibly. if there is one thing i hate more than everything, it's people judging other people. no one should have the right to do it.
i am currently a student at dawson college. i study arts and culture. it's like a mix of fine arts and art history. i just finished my first year, and i have to say, it was much of an experience! so much work! it was especially hard because my whole life i went to french school, and for college i decided to apply to an english one and got accepted. i always wanted to go to an english school ever since i was a kid, and i did it! i do not have a clear idea of what i'd like to do as a job when i'm older because i like way too many things. i might just try to figure out and pursue a few of my projects, and maybe try to make a living out of it. i've had my own clothing line since i was fifteen, if you haven't heard of it before, it's called heartbreaker clothing. i have been working really hard on it, and it's pretty much my job for now. a lot of people do believe for some reason that i model, or something, but i do not. i don't think i could really make my life as a model, it seems like such a complicated and hard job. you also don't work for long as a model, unless you're kate moss and get big again after a cocaine scandal.
i enjoy a lot of things in life, mostly simple things. i enjoy watching tv shows(ugly betty, lost, gossip girl, dead like me, skins), watching movies(the island, the virgin suicides, jawbreaker, cruel intention, cool world, thoroughly modern millie, running with scissors, pleasantville), listening to some good music(the tings tings, katy perry, adele, robyn, beth, mgmt, a fine frenzy, owl city, air, crystal castles), and reading books. however i only watch dvds, i never watch actual tv. i can't stand all the commercials and most of the stuff they show on tv is so boring!
i do try to get back to as many of you as possible, but please understand how hard it is for me to reply to all those comments. i don't spend my days on the internet. i read all your comments, and they make me happy. it makes me even happier if i have time to reply to them. all your support is amazing!